After being hospitalized for pneumonia, which included being sedated for five days, my mom finally started recovering earlier this week. Physically, she was doing really well under the circumstances as soon as she woke up from sedation, but for the following few days, she oscillated between being completely with it and being frighteningly delusional. Apparently, this is a common side effect of the heavy sedatives she had to be on while the ventilator had to breathe for her.
My brother and I were a little scared a first, wondering whether she’d stay like this. But pretty soon we realized this was just a temporary thing and we couldn’t resist joking about mom’s silly stories, saying she had access to a different dimension where reality was quite different than what we know here. But all joking aside, this made me think how most of us humans are delusional, at least to a degree, for most of our lives and without any help of sedatives.
What I just said may sound really harsh, but think about it: do we not spend most of our time fighting with reality, resisting what is and being outraged at things we know we can’t control? Instead of using our energy to find out what’s real (or what’s permanent), we keep trying to outsmart, manipulate and negotiate with what is unreal (which is everything that is temporary). That seems to me like a pretty delusional state of being. I know because I lived a pretty delusional life for my first 30 years.
A few days ago, I invited my yogis to mull over this question: do I have my head screwed on the right way? Our practice focused on the neck and shoulders, which helps a lot of us who keep tension there. But more importantly, the practice was supposed to inspire every one of us to examine where in our lives we slip into the state of delusion and forget that we are here on earth to learn, and not necessarily to change the people, events and circumstances of this planet.
Most humans have no idea what they are in reality and mistakenly identify themselves with the bodies they occupy and the belief systems they hold. Doesn’t that make most of us delusional? To not have any awareness of the very essence of who we are is to live in complete ignorance and guarantees a life based on fear. And living such a life is the scariest hallucination. But good thing hallucinations aren’t permanent, or real.
When the foundation of a building is shaky, the rest of the structure can’t be solid. In the same way, if we’re not aware of the most vital aspect of ourselves, how can we expect our perspective to reflect reality? We may just be caught in a hallucination.
A hallucination is something that doesn’t exist outside of the mind. In other words, it’s something we conjured up, but believe to be reality. And when most humans are having the same or similar belief system and collectively conjure up “reality,” no wonder we humans are like the blind leading the blind. We say we want change, we want peace of mind, we want a better life for ourselves and our families, but we keep holding on to the same belief systems that took us down the rabbit hole of illusion to begin with.
Little do we know that waking up from our hallucinations would give us everything we ever wanted by showing us what we are. Because once we get a taste of our true nature, we start to see that nothing is ever out of order. Our heads stay screwed on the right way, no matter what happens in our life.